Trust

I learned something the other day and it didn't sink in until this today.  I have some trust issues going on.  I get defensive, angry and doubtful sometimes.  I only FEEL like I have trust issues with people.  But I read something that said if you don't trust people or yourself you don't trust God.  Because God directs you and guides you.  He takes care of you.  Today that clicked for me.  I have no clue why it just clicked today, my mind is like that.  All of a sudden things just click for no apparent reason.  :)  So now I am pursuing a deep relationship with God and asking Him to bring my defenses down and help me receive His love.  Also I had no idea I didn't trust God.  I felt like I trusted Him.  But that shows me something else I learned recently.  That feelings are fickle and they will lie to you.  In this instance my feelings told me I trusted God when I didn't.  They can also tell me that I can't trust myself or people in my life...I know this is a lie.  You have to do what you need to do by faith and not by your feelings.  I read today in a Joyce Meyer book that you don't have to feel like you can do something in order to do it.  You can say I trust God or whoever even if you don't feel like it.  Or I forgive this person even if you don't FEEL like it.  Your feelings will follow later.  Just keep saying it and doing it.  Today God gave this verse to remember throughout the day. It's Proverbs 3:5  Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.  Joyce Meyer has it said like this....short and sweet statement that you can say out loud when you find yourself losing trust or worrying.  Proverbs 3:5 I trust God completely; there is no need to worry.  Please say this out loud....it really does help.